but me, still cant accept that im already one... lots of my frens said to me lots and lots of time.. "bem, grow up laaa.." hmm.. i noe wat they really means.. i act like a stupid annoying lil kid who done stupid thing and annoyed people around be... maybe changing my attitude will be my 'azam taun baru'.. (again this year~) :p heheheh... i juz dunno why i cant.. everytime i tried to be more matured, i done it in a wrong way.... like, i tried several times to juz go to anywhere else all by myself... for eg; going to canteen and eat all alone without telling anyone.. well, i think a GUY should think that's ok.. but my friends said that its a stupid thing to do... and sometimes, i tried to not to cried in front of all my friends.. bt owez 'kantoi' wif mr.a and mr.p... everytime i hide all my sad feelings, they would knew it on the spot... they knew i hid something.. i cant hide my feelings..... hahaha.. they advised me, try to not to cry and handle all my problems in matured way... lalalaaa.. i dunno how the hell would i do that.. how's matured means to u guys... tell me.. i need a FINE GUIDELINES in this... MATURED.. GUIDE ON HOW TO BE A MATURED GUY.. is that such kind of book even exist? coz, if it is, i would read it...
help me... one of my best friends told me, why dont u try to wear some specx(cemin mate~), coz it makes me look more matured... hhehehe... well, he said that coz he saw me last time using spex when i was a freshie in uitm in my first sem.. i only wear that spex for about a month and then the spex broken and i dont wanna buy a new one coz i think spex makes me look sux.. (xpayah pkai spex pun da nmpak sux, apatah lg la kalo ak pkai spex.. anyway, i bought a new spex and repaired the broken spex.. now, i have the blue one and black+red one... and i hate both of it... well, i hope no ones came laughing at me and saying that, "hey nerd~!"... blah... it makes me more sad coz i noe im sux~ dhla sore xsempurna lnsung, looks sux, bad atittude.. wat else do i have..... no wonder my "fren" left me... i fell inlove but treated like hell... but, i hope to get a better one someday..
perhh.. i wrote quite a lot tonite... maybe, sme dkat atas tu ade terselit azam2 baru aku... well, some azam ak xleh gtaw kat cni coz nnt owg gelak... no one know's about it yet... well, Happy New Year and akhiri tahun ni dgn doa ksyukuran dan ALHAMDULILLAH...
-luv my family and frens-
p/s: *the 1st pix was me and one of my besfren acap wearing my stupid blue specx and the 2nd pix was taken yesterday with my lil cousins wif my new sepcx..(showin off~).. hahahahah.. :P HAPPY NEW YEAR~!!
(like last time), it's a fatal to yourself.. last time ak 'meletop', sme mmber ak kne. hurmmm.. ak xtaw nape ak lyn diowng cmtu. pd hal, mslah tu kekdg xde kaitan dgn diowng pn. dats y, ak se, blog ni leh jd tmpat ntok mluah rse x puas ati gak... hhehe.. helps me a lil bit.. anyway, ak de gak bce mmber ak sowg lg pnyer blog, dye ckp guy yg ade blog sounds like gay.. blah~! y would i care. sape la yg bce kalo bkan ak sndri. lantak kowunk.
heheh.. ak tgk, sbena nyer byk gle guy yg ade blog diowng sndiri especially novel and song writers.. diowg ckp, mnde2 yg diowng tulis dlm blog diowng kekadang bg memori kt diowng pastu bg ilham kt diowng dlm tulis novel or lagu. :) see? i think this thing helps urself. so ,ak xpdulik ape owg ckp. hekx3. tp ak tanak le owg plik2 bce blog ak. ak malu gak lang diowng ckp ak cam bdak kcik nk ngadu2.kehx3~